Joe Morishige - Journal Entry 2023.05.09 - More time do to less

The nagging voice running forever in my head:

You better maximize your time

You've only got so much time, better get it done

Don't waste the time, its going fast, how are you

Going to feel if you don't get anything done

What are you going to have to show for todaY?

Fuck that shit, you can't turn it off, its there

Where is it coming from? This stupid computer is

tryin to tell me how to write on my own computer.

Just got to get that out, all day today, I'm thinking

man I better make the most of this time, what do

I need to do to feel like I'm accomplished today?

How much is enough, how much is enough, to what end

should pursue this madness. These words, is it these

words that are killing me? Always trying to look good

trying to make sure I'm professional, trying to make

sure I get the next gig, I get called back, I build

its crazy making for sure. But I gotta get this out

gotta type it out, the noise thats in my head, gotta

gotta gotta, get it out and gone, well maybe not

gone but at least somewhere I can see it and feel it

in a different way, to acknowledge that it is there.

Its always a plan, small plans, big plans, small

timers, big timers, the big timer of your life, the

small timer of your nap. the medium sized timer of

where you gonna live, how you gonna live? This is

good to write, to just sit here and write, I need to

do this more. Why do I care about doing more of

anything. Its always more, more, more, more, more

more shit, more and more shit, shit you don't need

more calls, more emails, more money, more bills,

more credit cards, more sales, more thrift. I want

to do less and I want more time with less.

In what scenarios is less progress?

It seems that we have tricked ourselves into thinking

that more is always the path of progress.........